I think my middle name is last resort because I don't even have a real middle name lol but I know what you mean. Unfortunately, I feel the same way as you do but its because of the side effects of stuttering I have developed. I am introverted, socially awkward sometimes, anxiety, people pleaser, a push over, and I just enjoy being by myself. And yeah stuttering has made me weak in the area of starting a conversation to feel somewhat confident. But I truly feel stuttering at an early age developed my fear of people very early and I'm now 34 still feeling the affects. Here is an example: I sometimes won't get the mail from my mailbox because I don't want to be seen by neighbors who might talk to me so I will look out the window first or if I hear anyone, I will wait. I just simply don't want to be seen, not because just because I would have to talk. I know, I am an odd person.