Hey man. I'm 31 and went through all the same things you have. You can get through this. I know it's hard, but please don't do anything bad. Stay here with us, we'll help you through whatever you're feeling. I promise you it gets better. I'm now a lead making video games, which I never thought I could do with my stutter. You can do whatever you want to do, even if it's hard right now. Please chat with us.