I'm going through a particularly difficult period this year, but it's routine. Some months I go with 70-80 percent fluency (occasional blocks here and there), and other periods like this one I have like 30-50 percent fluency or less (constant blocks on one or two words in every sentence I say). ​ Recently at a friends' Christmas party I had to take a couple shots to make the stuttering disappear completely so I could normally socialize, but it kinda sucked having to monitor my own behavior in the back of my mind so as to make sure that I wasn't acting drunk, but nonetheless, I still had an amazing time. Alcohol and the occasional benzo for me is really the only time I can get a glimpse of what normal, non-hesitant, and fluid speech is like. It's a horrible coping mechanism though, and embarrassing incidents in the past have forced me to realize I must limit myself to 1 or 2 days of the month where I can indulge while maintaining a healthy lifestyle. For me though, getting a feel for completely fluent speech at least once a month, maybe twice is satisfactory for me to also keep trying to achieve that same fluency sober by taking note of my mannerisms and breathing tendencies that I have while under the influence. It's my own method for combating this obstacle. Any recommendations or adjustments to my approach are welcome. I honestly have no idea wtf im getting myself into as im still a super young dude. ​ I'm too am so glad this subreddit exists. In moments like these where I feel like I won't be able to enjoy my youth to the fullest because of my speech issues, the community here reminds to, as one redditor on this sub mentioned "*just keep fucking going*" ​ And Merry Christmas [u/rrrredditaccount](https://www.reddit.com/user/rrrredditaccount) ! ​ ​