I’m in the same place. I graduate in about 2 weeks. I’m a covert stutterer like you. I’ve become adept at hiding my difficulty, and I’ve never been to speech therapy, it’s too expensive. For a long time I thought I was wasting my time with college. However, I don’t think a career life is not for everyone, nor would I have fit in any better with the normies on campus if I didn’t stutter. Life really starts after college. If you can afford it, take some time to rest and reflect on college a little bit. Don’t be so hard on yourself, we all have something we’re trying to beat within us. It’s not worth it beating yourself up. You stutter, and you’ll have to figure out a way to live a full life with the challenge of stuttering behind every social interaction. It will make you a stronger person, and a better person. Just don’t give up. Find little ways to move forward in your life. Exercise a little bit, don’t eat too much, find down time for yourself, make some realistic goals and don’t judge yourself so much. Nothing really matters all that much anyway, and other people don’t care that much either.