I have so much to share but I can’t stand the sound of my own voice or the thought that others can hear it.

I have so much to share but I can’t stand the sound of my own voice or the thought that others can hear it. I have always thought that when I’m finally in a safe space/environment where I can stutter comfortably without having to put the great effort to hide my stutter or tamper with its severity, and without having to worry that I’ll be undermined, ignored, and judged, I’ll talk nonstop. I had the opportunity to engage with a diverse group of disabled people. Some had speech impediments. I still refused to speak and I can’t tell what’s stopping me exactly; perhaps due to various reasons that not all I can address. I’m too ashamed of the fact that I stutter. I think less of myself because I stutter. I think I’m intelligent because I stutter. I think I’m unworthy, unwanted, and a complete failure, but I don’t think the same of other stutterers. It’s just me. Anyone here relates? Anyone here wants to suggest any self acceptance tips especially that I’m thinking of engaging with this community again? I have so much to share but I can’t stand the sound of my own voice or the thought that others can hear it.