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I really feel for you here and you are absolutely not in the wrong. My mum would be the same - she’s unable to accept that there could possibly be anything any of her kids are struggling with… and so, of course, my stutter is dismissed as being in my head or not real. I’ve taken the decision in recent years just to keep quiet or try and divert the conversation away from a situation where I know my stutter would be pronounced. It’s a horrible feeling because I know that I’m not my true self around them. But I know that they can’t accept my stutter so it’s the only way. In restaurant situations, I often find myself tagging onto the back of someone else’s order (“I’ll have the same please”), pointing at something on the menu, or choosing something I have some confidence in saying first time, even though none of the menu options are my first choice! I’m not an advocate for “hiding” a stutter, but when it comes to family in denial, any and all tactics to get out of an awkward situation are what I take - The embarrassment and ridicule is just too much for me personally. I hope you have a supportive friend group that understand the day to day difficulty of living with a stutter. It’s a sad day when you realise that your family don’t truly have your back, but that’s when your friends that do really come into their own.