Thank you for your comment about when I underwent hypnosis. In response to your question >*"Why did you want to go back to stuttering?"* It's becuase it felt like something was wrong, after all, I was thinking "I must first know why I achieved fluency". So, even though I had achieved fluency for 3 days, I was at the same time internally conflicted "why" "how did it happen?" and "No! I must continue believing that stuttering can come any minute now" (so the fact that stuttering didn't return for 3 days felt very conflicted). I think it felt so conflicted because - during my lifetime - I had developed an image of myself stuttering. Resulting in creating a mental image of myself that stuttering is always looming around the corner (even during moments of fluent speech). And, I had learned to immerse myself in a stutter state or stutter mindset which goes way deeper than just a simple self-fulfilling prophecy. It actually reinforces the concept that subconscious fluency is wrong (or at least an obstacle). For example, I had regular thoughts in my mind "I must stutter because I'm a stutterer". Such thoughts are stutter remnants from my past experiences because previously I accepted stuttering as something permanent. Maybe you could view it as, learned helplessness as a way of coping with this situation which is my way of showing respect or empathy to be attracted to that image of myself stuttering, to that "safe" feeling or state of myself stuttering which I was so used to. The stutter image of myself was: I had accepted that I am how I am. My stutter is random and capricious (changing according to no discernible rules); some days I stutter terribly, other days hardly at all. My brain's gonna do what my brain's gonna do, regardless of "triggers", circumstances, emotional state, diet, tiredness, being alone or with others, or anything else. It's a fathomless mystery, and I'm okay with that. A self-image of a stutterer can result in: \- Repeatedly reminding ourselves that past patterns always repeat: We automatically presume that because we blocked on a particular word in a particular speaking situation in the past that we will therefore always block on it in similar situations in the future. So, we keep staying open to the possibility that our anticipation of a negative experience may lead to an actual negative experience \- and thus, this implies that we have no desire to forget that we stutter - especially during difficult speaking situations \- in other words, we keep connecting neutral stimuli to the execution threshold (which turns them into triggers), rather than forgetting about it and letting go. So, once something is mentioned, it’s hard to get it out of our head and think about something else. \- yes indeed, a self-image as a stutterer can, on one hand, reduce certain triggers, while on the other, amplify triggers from the other end of the spectrum (e.g., increasing the possibility of stuttering, justifying speech accuracy over managing the forward flow of speech -which is what we are already doing during choral reading, etc). So, imagine my surprise of speaking fluently for no apparant reason, I couldn't handle not knowing why? As well as, it was so conflicting with my self-image (or identity or state/mindset).