commentr/StutterSeptember 27, 2019

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My stutter made me dread waking up everyday in all of my years of school. I was terrified to just say "here" when the teacher was doing the morning attendance. I have been made fun of by fellow students and even some teachers. I straight up refused to talk for most of my childhood and teenage years. This worked then, but I'm currently facing the repercussions of that strategy. I am socially behind almost every one of my peers. People always say to me that "nobody cares if you stutter." I want to scream at them that that is total bullshit. I have been turned down for jobs because of it and had parents ask to be placed with a different music teacher (I taught music for several years in my late teens). I just go along with what ever people say because if I bring up my own opinion, I stutter, which makes any and all credibility go out the window. Women have told me learn to speak right when i've tried to approach them. In short, it has been the bane of my existence. You probably can't tell, but I'm a little bitter towards it lol

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceIdentity & DisabilitySchool & Work

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionShame & EmbarrassmentStigma & BullyingEmployment & Career