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This is my attempt to summarize your new YT video: Intro: * 13:42. When I speak to others who stutter, it makes me feel calmer. I'd ask myself: 'If I'd sound like this, what would I do myself?' (such as, take it slow and easy). It feels like they've taken my burden, which allowed me this relief * **Stutter state**: If I'm in the stutter state, then I keep worrying about the next block, and the next. I keep convincing myself that it doesn't work, that I can't speak fluently. I keep wondering what it would be like to speak fluently (basically torturing myself) * Counter-argument: So, why be in a stutter state if it has an opposite, negative effect of what we are hoping? The more you apply a fluent state, the more comfortable you are in it, and the more we realize we are not gonna die. * **Fluent state**: If I'm in a fluent state, then it feels like I'm talking to the wind. If it doesn't work out, I feel like it's not a big deal, it's not the end of the world. We'll still get through it, we have our whole lives. This then makes me less scared that I would block forever * 32:46. When I speak to others who stutter, then I experience that I don't work on my confidence. By confidence I mean, like "*I'm gonna go for it. I'm gonna focus on fluency, be really upbeat, feel great. I got this. I'm gonna say everything fluently. I'll gonna regulate if I have to.*" If a monkey would challenge me, I'd get into this placebo-effect state * 35:51. The more I allowed myself to stutter, the more I reinforce it * 46:00. My stutter doesn't scare me anymore. In a job interview I was surprised that I did stutter, or that I didn't have a better handle on it Tips: * backtrack a few words, if I push the stutter (like a tight finger-trap) * **reaping the benefits of backtracking**: when I backtrack a few words, I don't use it to get a running start to like run through a wall. Instead, I use it to not go through the same psychological struggle, for example, by letting go, not worrying, or not thinking about how I'm gonna say it * it's not about how hard you hit, rather how hard you get hit and can tolerate it * SLPs recommend speaking slower. I recommend to change the pace and separate the words (almost sounds monotone) with the goal of grounding myself, and waiting out anxiety to subside. This breaks the process of the psychological struggling. Sometimes I try to speak faster (instead of slower) that blast me into fluency. This reduces the unhelpful attitude of word substitution, or worrying about one specific block. This improves my feeling like I am cheating. This resulted in completely changing my attitude that I wanted to portray * 44:14. Don't associate stuttering (or speech performance) with your identity. Because this can help to reduce the fear of failure. Stuttering happens, but it's not who I am * it's about staying positive and about bettering myself (instead of being stuck in a loop) * 1:02:44. Dissociate stuttering from my identity, and rather see it as a healthy curiousity In my opinion: * You said: "*When I tend to be reminded of my stutter it becomes its own onset with whatever I'm saying and so I wonder if when you disclose it, it also reminds you of the whole process of what you go through stuttering and brings it all right up to the forefront. It's like when someone asks to repeat a word we may have said fluently, I may feel this instant reminder that I can stutter on it even though I just said it and boom, it's all brought right to the forefront and I end up stuttering when they asked me to repeat it, what ever it may be.*" Yes exactly! If I speak to others who also stutter, then I get reminded of the whole stutter process, stutter state and then I become extremely sensitive to triggers to inhibit execution of motor movements * 48:25. In my opinion, it may be hard for PWS to execute motor movements, because even if they speak fluently, they still are not happy with it, they still feel this pressure that stuttering might return, or a pressure that they need to maintain fluency to prove to listeners that they can do it, or they still blame too much anxiety, and they still don't feel that they have a handle on their triggers * 50:30. You said that you stutter more on the letter /S/. I consider this a feared or anticipated letter. The way how I dealt with 'feared imagined letters' such as the /S/, is to adopt a new belief that: * (1) stuttering anticipation doesn't exist. **Argument**: because no one can predict his own behaviors in 2 seconds like I'm not really able to predict that I'll stutter on the /S/ in the future. In other words, it's just a random anxiety feeling that doesn't have a meaning, but I have associated it with anticipation anxiety and 'act as if it' has a meaning * (2) I acknowledge that perceiving the letter /S/ as a feared letter, is a superstition. In other words, it's considered repetitive negative thinking, 100% subjective (not objective), and invalid * (3) I made a promise to myself to never apply the terminology 'feared letter' or 'I anticipate blocks' in my mind. In other words, I made a self-rule that I may never analyze or discuss anything related with anticipation, so that I reduce overthinking and predicting the letter /S/. This lowers the possibility (in our mind) that we could stutter on the /S/ * 54:00-56:00. Yes I agree, if we block, then we are not able to voluntarily execute speech movements. I argue that anticipation anxiety could trigger us to disrupt this execution of motor movements. In my opinion, we have learned to incorrectly handle this trigger. For example, I argue that we made a **habit** of perceiving this trigger as dangerous, or that we need to fix it first, in order to decide whether to execute speech movements (which is an unhelpful attitude/response). So, in this viewpoint, I argue that we made a **habit** of adopting an unhelpful response to anticipation anxiety * 55:00. Why can't we execute motor movements during a speech block? You raise a good question. In my experience, if I urge (or desire) to execute motor movements (during a block), then I feel an extreme physical headache and neck pain (aka [sympathetic](https://www.google.com/search?q=parasympathetic+vs+sympathetic) pain). My idea is that I am intolerant against this desire (the desire to execute motor movements), which then causes me to feel too much head & neck pain. I likely made a habit of subconsiously inhibiting motor movements just to reduce this pain. (*Maybe, near the early onset, I perceived blocks as a problem, which led to associating the inhibition of motor movements with a headache with the goal of sending a signal to my brain telling me that speech blocks are dangerous?!*) Question: * You mentioned: "A part of my neck is tense". Could you please explain this in detail? (I think I have the same actually) * Whenever you block, do you sometimes blame the fact that you (at that moment), didn't know how to execute speech movements? (Answer: because I do, if I blame not knowing how to initiate motor movements, then I justify inhibiting speech movements (resulting in a block)) **TL;DR summary**: I summarize a YouTube video about stuttering. The video discusses the concepts of the stutter state and the fluent state. It suggests that being in the stutter state, where one worries about blocks and struggles with fluency, is counterproductive. Instead, embracing the fluent state, where one is more relaxed and less fearful of blocks, can lead to better outcomes. The video offers tips such as reducing psychological struggle, changing speaking pace, and dissociating stuttering from one's identity. Finally, I provide a review, such as my idea to ignore the whole concept of anticipated letters, and dissociating them. Additionally, I raise questions about neck and head pain during a speech block, and the tendency to blame a lack of knowledge, that may lead to inhibition of executing speech movements in a failed attempt to reduce this sympathetic pain.