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Not knowing how to handle this Being a teacher with speech blocks is such a difficult task. Especially, teaching English, it's impossible to go on in the midst of so many people who don't have any issues speaking fluently. This is what's stopping me from doing things. Attending interviews, I'm afraid or anxious to apply for jobs, fearing the embarrassment or the awkward feeling that comes during blocks or just the tension in the chest from all the show I've to put on makes it all so overwhelming. I end up feeling exhausted, both mentally and physically, at the end of every task that may seem so easy for all those who can speak fluently. I really want to forget my childhood trauma of my school experience and stop feeling crippled by these blocks. I sometimes feel, if not for my school life, I would've been a different person (productive). Teaching is my passion (even though my blocks make me feel like an imposter at times). I love to do it and I'm good at it but everyone expects a teacher to be able to do everything when it comes to speaking. I can't be hiding around all the time, avoiding the mic or interactions when it comes to stage programs or performances or even making a phone call, having to speak to a student. I don't want to be identified as someone who blocks. It makes me feel terrible. I don't know what to do.