I understand what you’re feeling and I’ve had the same thoughts before. I’m a severe stutterer and all I’ve ever wanted to do is be able to accept it. I still can’t. But I’m closer to being able to and my life has gotten significantly better. And, it has helped my fluency in social situations as well. This anger in your heart will only make your stutter worse, in my opinion. But I get it. But this is coming from a fellow severe stutterer like you, not some person who stumbles over a few words. Feel free to DM if you ever wanna talk—I’m here.