Stuttering has held me back and now I'm feeling defeated

Stuttering has held me back and now I'm feeling defeated I'm not sure where to even begin, but I really need to get this off my chest. On paper, I should be doing well—I have a college degree and I passed a challenging civil service exam. But in reality, I'm stuck in a job that doesn't feel right, all because of my stutter. It's been a lifelong struggle, and it's created a deep fear of any job that requires strong verbal communication. I've let that fear dictate my career path, and it's left me feeling like a total failure and led to deep depression. The situation has gotten worse recently. My employer is looking to move me to a minimum wage job at a supermarket. I can't shake the feeling of shame and embarrassment. The thought of running into an old classmate or friend and having them see me there fills me with so much anxiety. It feels like a public admission that I couldn't make it. I feel like I've failed in every aspect of life, and it's a constant struggle. All of this leads me to have suicidal thoughts. The only bright spot is my girlfriend, who has been an incredible support. I'm posting this because I'm hoping to hear from others who might have navigated a similar struggle.