Hey queen, very sorry to hear this. I think it´s very courageous if you choose your line of job even though you have a stutter. It´s okay if you feel like it´s something to big to handle with a stutter at this moment. Perhaps it was too big of a leap like someone with claustrophobia working in an elevator. You can work up your way to getting more comfortable with talking to people. It´s really great that you are hoping to have one day of not having a stutter. For me those days existed, and I am on my path of improving my stutter. ​ I wouldn't say to drop the pursue of improving your stutter, but there is still so much to life without speech. There are great internet friends, sign language, your own self to entertain. If my fluent best friend could not speak anymore, I would still need him by my side even if he couldn't talk because I value him for the person he is. Character can shine in so many ways besides speech.