commentr/StutterOctober 18, 2022

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1. Yes, it began when I was a child (I don't remember the exact age) and increased in severity to adulthood. 2. During school, I would apply for alternate assessments (e.g. private oral presentation instead of one in front of the class) and would avoid class book readings. The first day of school was difficult as I had difficulty introducing my name to others. Overall, my teachers were supportive. My classmates often did not know about my stutter/speech blocks because I was quiet and was able to hide them most of the time. However, when I did disclose it to my friends or classmates, they were understanding. 3. My mindset has changed. I am now more hopeful that I will be able to improve my speech. This hope has come from experiences that have showed me that I am capable of fluency (e.g. successful interviews and presentations). These experiences have also made me realise that my disfluency is psychological, a product of anxiety. If I can improve my anxiety, I know my speech will improve as well. 4. I have chosen not to be in any relationships (religious reasons). 5. Overall, people are understanding, patient, and polite. There was one time though when someone laughed and asked me "did you forget your name?" when I blocked on my name. However, this was a harmless joke as this person did not know about my speech disfluency. 6. I wish people realised that controlling disfluency is not as easy as the suggestions we are often provided, such as "speaking slowly" or "deep breathing". 7. Dislike - Disfluency makes it more challenging for me to achieve my goals (it is an unnecessary obstacle) . For example, interviews are already not easy, and adding stutter/speech blocks to that just makes them even harder. Like - Disfluency has enabled me to be more empathetic, non-judgemental, and understanding of others. 8. Yes, e.g. Q2. Additional examples include avoiding social events, telephone calls, and ordering drive-through food. 9. I struggle with my name, other peoples names, and mainly the letters Y, H, O, and E. 10. Speaking in a low, relaxed, and gentle tone has been really helpful! I'm currently working on managing my anxiety as well, which I feel will really help me to overcome my speech disfluency. 11. I know what I want to say, but I have difficulty physically producing the sounds to say it. Before moments of disfluency, the pessimistic anticipation of disfluency makes me anxious, worried, nervous, fearing judgment from others. During and after disfluency, I have felt helpless, depressed, frustrated, embarrassed, disappointed in myself, and sometimes suffocated (severe moments). In addition, I also experience physiological responses such as an increased heart rate and mouth muscle tension. 12. My disfluency has never been complemented before. However, I don't think I would be flattered by someone complimenting my stutter because what is cute/endearing to them is a real struggle for me. 13. Yes, that we are less intelligent that others because we speak less. Speaking less is not an indication of intelligence. For context, my speech disfluency is mild-moderate. Feel free to ask me any other questions you have. I would love to read your work as well when it is finished (if you are comfortable sharing it).

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceCauses & Variability

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionAnxiety & Social JudgmentStress & Fight/FlightPropositionality & WeightShame & EmbarrassmentExperiential Association

Codes (17)

intimidation_authorityordering_service_encounterreading_aloudsaying_name_introductionsocializing_group_sizesocializing_one_on_onetelephone_videoanticipationcyclical_rhythmemotional_statelistener_reactionperceived_judgmentphysical_statepropositionalitysensory_environmentsocial_pressuretime_pressure