I did the same things, daily, and I failed miserably for a while until I had that one win (I asked for directions and I stumbled but the other guy said, "No worries ") Please don't put so much pressure on yourself. It's a very good idea to reach out and seek help from a counselor. If you ever want to practice via Zoom, send me a message. We are all here to help and know that you are #AWESOME. Keep Moving Forward !!!