Bruh, I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. I’m not sure where all this anger is coming from but it doesn’t sound like it’s helping you to reach your goals. I hope you learn to realize that you’re more than your stutter and it doesn’t control your fate as much as you think it does, your mind has far more power. Please don’t be too hard on yourself because it makes life worse. I’m not saying it will be easy, but do the work and give a shit about yourself anyways. It’s the only way. I had a severe blocking, repetition stutter through my teens. Over the years it got better as I found confidence and just saying fuck it. Im 28 now, still stutter every day but it’s manageable. A couple months ago I asked a girl out and my stutter was as severe as it had been as a kid and it surprised me. Are we dating now? No. We just gotta pick ourselves up by the bootstraps and keep going. Hoping you find your way bro, don’t hate me 😭