Zioticx, As a lifelong stutterer myself, I completely understand how you're feeling. Sometimes it seems *impossible* to live the kind of life you want to live with a stutter. My advice- you can't allow your stutter define you. It will feel impossible at times, like it does right now. But if you hold your head up and try your best, much better days will come, I promise. It will be embarrassing and frustrating at times. There will probably be some days where you want to just fucking quit everything. But there will also be days that will be incredibly wonderful and life will be feel so worth living. If you are kind to yourself, believe in yourself and focus on the things and people that bring the most joy, love and satisfaction to you, these days will soon greatly start to outnumber the bad ones. How you're feeling right now actually happens to just about everyone. Life can be really rough sometimes. You're definitely not alone. Give yourself credit for trying and -as lame as it may initially sound- try to remember what an actual gift that is being alive for the short time that we are. The average life span is only 657,000 hours, so make them what you want them to be. I'm a longtime lurker but just made this account to say this. PM me if you need someone to talk to. We're all in this together.