25yo no friends to talk to and never had a girlfriend.

25yo no friends to talk to and never had a girlfriend. Have any of you ever feel like not approaching someone just because of guilt that you're not doing justice to them by being in their life just cause their life would be miserable dealing with someone with a disability. This thought itself took many turns in my life until now like some years ago I started thinking that I'll be confident and it won't matter to them but after facing some situations where I've been ignored and taken for granted I'm back to self pity. Here in India every girl thinks that they deserve the best I mean why not but stuttering is really that bad to get ignored and not been respected I mean I get it I can't speak certain things at the right time and I have this habit of going silent when I know that the person in front won't care less bout the next words that are gonna come out of my mouth. I love people I love talking even if I stutter but the response of others just sets me off. I used to curse myself and the creator why did he gave me this crippleness where I'm completely fine physically but just some words couldn't come out of my mouth clearly and people treat me like that. I'm just so tired of even trying. Sorry for my bad English as you guys know I'm not a native speaker but I hope this is the safe place to be open about our disability.