Hi! It has been a long time! My very hectic semester got over and a lot has happened. Since I didn't stutter since birth...I actually have no thoughts about whether I'm going to stutter until I know that I'm about to stutter. I just have the conversation in my mind and after having stuttered for quite a long time...I do anticipate my stutter. But it's more like...just before I say the word I feel I'm going to stutter on, it's like I already tried saying it in my mind and i stuttered in my mind which leads to the anticipation of my stutter. Before ninth grade, quite a few classmates of mine stuttered and I always wanted to solve the issue for them. I used to deeply think about what exactly is happening to them and how can I help them out. But I can safely say that when I first started stuttering, it was long after I was thinking about my classmates and it was not even in an uncomfortable setting. I was just talking to one friend in school and there wasnt any anticipation or anything at all. It was just a very small stutter and I got through it well. But I realized the feeling of being helpless for a split second. It continued and the duration of my stutter also increased and I became a fully fledged stutterer. I have all those points you mentioned in your third point. I strongly feel that getting used to our stutter makes it all the more harder to stop stuttering to the point that it even impedes on our normal speech. I have not been able to say the word "shrink" properly. It took some practice to get it back. I've also noticed that I stumble when reading sentences for which the tongue has to go to completely different places and that I sometimes unnecessarily pause between words. For instance, before I stuttered, I would say the abbreviation "IPL" continuously. Especially the "I" and the "P". These days, I noticed that I say "I" and I complete saying it fully and then go to "P".