Yeah, i noticed that i am doing that, when the company phone rings, i just ignore it and then say it's broken probably, after few calls that i wasn't able to say anything and the other time just some blablering, the situations i can't avoid are really hell and keep thinking about them all the time, i am just tired of this, so f\*cking tired man. If i stop avoiding them and face them, it's always a shamefest and the stares are the worst, maybe just bad people, but they instead of waiting and trying to get what's going on, they just give angry or weird stares, or even what ? what ? what are you saying ? what's wrong with you ? I am so tired of stuttering to the point where my motivation just vanish.