Exactly..people have seemingly expected me to be immune to embarrassment. Almost like a psycho or superhuman..like why tf am I going to keep stressing myself out & hurting my mental & physical health putting myself in these situations when 90% of the time I know the outcome bc I've tried approaching alot in the past. Doing all that isn't even worth the possible reward tbh..idk tho maybe I've just become overly weak & jaded over the years bc they're are some stutterers that literally give no shits at all about disrespect & embarrassment. Theyre like superhuman in my eyes 😂