i had the hope that by this time in my life I would have controlled my stutter

i had the hope that by this time in my life I would have controlled my stutter Sorry for my English in the first place. When I found this reddit some years ago, i think 5 or 6 years, when i was 20 yo, I felt good because i saw some posts of people talking about how they reduced they stutter with confidence or even made it disappear, or others that still stuttered as usual but they didn't feel bad or let it nulify their lives. There were also "negative" posts like this one that also helped me to see that I'm not the only one suffering from this strange condition, because it is so strange to meet other people that stutter and even stranger to talk openly about this. the thing is that i thought that i would grow up, that i would become an adult and make myself valuable, but years have passed and i am the same person, even worse i would say, because i have less hope and only a little more of life knowledge. I would have never guessed that i would be a this point in my life, I don't have a functional relationship with my family, some friends that i hang up with but i have never have the courage to talk about my real problems (I'm a pseudo cover stutterer or hidden, I don't know the term) and most of them are not really good friends, i have never worked, cause I am still studying my major, which i will soon finish after 7 very long years of changing university because I couldn't have a normal life, I've lost intellectual hobbies that i had like reading or talking about dense things, i feel more stupid and more disfunctional. I tried to go to a psychologist but it wouldn't work for me, two different ones, one from public service and another private, i don't know which one was worse. I had a lot of hopes and projects about my life, I'm not depressed nor suicidal btw, i just know that the life that i want is almost impossible to get with my personality and condition, i see myself as stuck in time, not developing myself and always being the same weird kid that a lot of people finds nice but that doesn't live his life, he is just at home as much as he can, waiting for something that will never arrive. I know that with good attitude and mental endurance my life could be normal and even successful, but after half a decade of no change and even in the most changing years of a human (20-30) I have no more hope nor strengh to try. I don't know what I'm gonna do, I'll try to survive but i see the future very sad and unhappy. At least I enjoy time with myself and I have a lot of things to do and learn, but life is too difficult for me.