Hate feeling unable to socialize

Hate feeling unable to socialize I hate when I am trying to hang out with my friends but can’t get any words out. It feels like the time is being wasted as I can’t easily be involved with what’s going on. I try to force the words out but then I feel like I am about to burst into tears. I just want to be able to feel included but it’s a result of something I can’t control. Just needed to vent