It might be like mine was. Do you have the ability to get psychological support? It sounds like when you dissociate you revert to fluent. I used to think that if I only forgot that I stuttered, I would be fluent. I am not a proponent of therapeutic hypnosis ( medically) but it has helped some other people with anxiety and phobias. It's VERY important to only have hypnosis induced by a licensed, experienced practitioner who was referred by a physician.