Ever thought of suicide because of your stutter?

Ever thought of suicide because of your stutter? Don´t worry, I am not gonna kill myself. As long as there is a hope. I have rarely this very short thoughts of "fuck, why am I even living" after a big cringe moment. I think often about the death, if I had to die today by a car accident or something, no problem. I love life, just this unabillity to speak has beed slowly killing me from inside. Well, fortunatelly I am going to a very good speech therapy soon, so things should get better. ​ I am curious about your experience. Write also, how severe your stutter is. :)