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Choosing a career? I'm 23. For as long I can remember, I used to say I'd either be a doctor or an actor. I grew up having a very strong artistic inclination though, which was never really cultivated or promoted in my family. Until the age of 16, I was certain I wanted to do sth that had to do with me being on stage. But that's when I realized I had a stutter and I fell into a huge depression, that is going on until now, slightly better. I managed to put myself in a CS programme, but I barely pass my classes. 2 more years to go and lots of cramming if I want to finish on time. I hate that degree. And everybody talks about how much great money it has,but they don't talk about the competition nowadays and that many of those that earn those huge figures have been programming since childhood and actually LOVE this, applied mathematics, field. I don't know what to do. I feel like it's late for me to switch courses. I sometimes feel like switching to medicine, to at least accomplish the 2-3rd version of myself but deep inside I know that would mean I'd never become a true artist of any sort. I'd have to dedicate the rest of my life to science and I'd already be 6 years late. I'm really struggling with myself right now. I'm taking a path out of fear and I feel trapped in my body and in mt life. I sometimes have this thought of oh I wish I was stutter free for 5-10 years, live my life to the fullest and then die I don't care. But I'd be free for sometime to actually try. There 2 things I want to accomplish before I die; 1. Become an intellectually stimulated artist 2. Travel to every country So, I have no idea how to go on doing any of that. The only thing I'm certain about now, is that I am a failure.