They are real emotions, and it’s okay to feel these emotions. It’s very normal to feel these things growing up with a stutter. I too felt all these things at one point. Just as a little encouragement, I am 24 years old, still stutter, but have a great small group of friends, and I am married!! Do not let your stutter stop you from living a normal life. There are people who will love and value you despite the difficulty with your speech.