Trying to explain public speaking nightmares to a non-stutterer is 1000% impossible. I used to dread having to speak at meetings about topics that I was going to be questioned regarding spending money. So when I lock of course I'm going to throw weird words in there just to get something out of my throat and then when you get challenged by the grumpy corporate person on the other phone line saying "what, that doesn't make any sense." Now I have to try to get another word out which is even harder because I'm about to die from embarrassment. Boy I'm glad I don't do corporate work anymore. I haven't stuttered in a while because I've slowed my mind down a lot due to life changes. But then recently I was talking to my niece on the telephone and I was not really having enough to say to her and I got nervous because I wanted to keep talking to her because she's my niece. But all I ended up doing was getting nervous and I started to stutter really bad. And she got nervous and did a nervous laugh and then I got more nervous because I was making her feel uncomfortable which made me feel worse which made me stutter more. Luckily my brother saved the day by taking the phone back. 😩