WOW - this really really resonated with me. Thank you for sharing and being so open. I had not experienced performance anxiety until my first proper long term relationship ended in my mid-20's. Thereafter I would get the same physical fight-or-flight response to a sexual encounter as I would get if asked to speak in public (heart racing, throat tightening, brain running at 100 mph). It was devastating - took me a few years to get past it to actually have enjoyable and relaxed sexual encounters. ​ Your sentiment about enjoying the journey, letting the imperfections come and go and generally letting things just 'be' is incredibly powerful. I've only come to that realization in recent months after a period of reflection and wanting to conquer some of my mental demons associated with my stutter. Being kind to ourselves, not wasting time on pointless negative thoughts and enjoying life are so critical.