I completely agree with the point OP is making. I’ve tried to be positive and say f*ck it and just deal with it. I’ve tried to accept it. But what happens is, you start to believe these sugar coated things and put them into practice. Only then to be smacked back down to earth once again with the reality of your situation. Everyday is a fight. Every time I step out of my apartment, I feel like I’m going to war. I don’t even enjoy being around people anymore because it’s just so exhausting. I feel bad for making other people feel bad about something neither one of us really understands so I understand OP there. I just absolutely cannot shake the horrible, soul crushing feeling after a bad encounter with a stranger, which is almost all of them. I just want to run and hide away. Until I’m motivated again then something bad happens and I’m reminded of all those terrible feelings and thoughts. I’m not trying to be negative because I know this is a support group but I’m just tired of fighting and believing it’s gonna get better. Believing that I can actually get the things I want out of life. I’ve worked hard to try and accept it but I know I’ll never be able to accept it so hearing all the fake positivity all the time does get really annoying.