Yup, I can relate to everything above. Thanks for sharing! Welcome!! I stutter on D’s and B’s the most, more specifically when the word starts with those letters. Dad, destiny, dog, big, boat, etc. I get this feeling in my throat as if I just can’t pronounce it? I learned that I too can hide it from others in ways you’ve described, but more importantly- I learned that hiding it doesn’t do anything, or help me in the long run. I’m starting to finally just accept and embrace my stutter, sure enough it’s the best it’s been my entire life.