I am sorry to hear of your struggles. I've felt the same way at times. What has always helped me find relationships is being funny. I think I used humor to mask my stuttering because I tend to stutter more in serious situations. I just always tried to make things light hearted or comical. Lucky for me, women seem to really like guys that make them laugh easily. There are loads of jobs out there that don't require speaking. I used to do chat/email support for Apple and for EA. I was even doing phone support for a while there which was a challenge, but I did really well at it. What I find is that most people are fairly understanding and kind when they realize I stutter. We all probably carry scars of childhood and teenage bullying, but I find that most adults will not be mean about it, at least not openly. In 2021, it's not exactly cool to be a bully as an adult. Try to work on your mindset. If you constantly tell yourself that people won't like you because you stutter, it's a self fulfilling prophecy. They won't accept you because you might accept yourself because you stutter. I know I have dealt with a lot of self worth issues due to stuttering so I completely understand how it is. It's the same for finding a man. If you constantly tell yourself a man won't like you, that is how you'll treat each interaction with a man.