I’m glad you got to a point at least for today where you’re accepting it. Shit sucks bro- talking on the phone is a pain, talking to friends or family especially when you know exactly what you want to say but can’t. It’s a struggle bus- it doesn’t help when people say stuff, but eff them. If they think saying that’ll help, let them “help” their shitty life. We all have days where we’re fed up-sometimes it’s physical anger, sometimes you break down and cry, or you have moments of clarity like this where you’re at peace (maybe)