Well, that is also happening to me a lot, when I stutter in home, especially when I'm near my dad, that's really make me cry... The worse thing is, when I stutter my parents says 'Take a deep breath and talk slowly' but that is make me crazy, I say 'What can I do, I can not 'controlling' that' etc. I'm stuttering since my childhood and I really do not have close friends through that... I can understand you very well... Also, in this days I noticed somethings weird. I really do not stutter when I'm talking English (English is also not my main language) or I really do not stutter when I'm *extremely* sad or angry. In my opinion, stuttering is kinda psychological, when I talk with my siblings (I really have good relationships with my siblings) I really do not stutter, or when I talk with my literature teacher I really do not stutter, I even speak quite fluently. Also, I think you should read somethings loudly for stop stuttering, I usually read articles loudly during studying and talking in English with others on Discord and that things are motivating me very well. Also, do not feel scared of stuttering, I mean sometimes I know that I will stutter badly near others and some people will kidding about that but I'm still talking, just try to talk dude, do not feel worrying about stuttering, I think you got my point... You should try this things, lastly if you wanna chatting with me about this things my DMs are open! 🙌🏻