Hey bro i used to think about suicide all the time. I used to to think that that my stutter would disappear when i graduated from uni and if it didnt i would just take my own life. Well when I actually graduated i still stuttered and the stress made it worse and i couldnt get a job for 18 months. I was so depressed, and constantly thought about suicide. But i got through that and praise to almighty despite my stutter i have a good job and a loving family. You’ll get through this as well and believe me there is so much to live. Ill pray for you and hope that God eases your pain. Take care