Damn i can relate to this.. Wish i had some advice to give but I've gotten to a point that i hate everybody and keep conversation so minimal where all i ever say are 1 word sentences. Everytime i stutter a rage builds inside me and i over analyze peoples facial expressions and assume they are thinking the worst about me. Im observant enough to notice people treat me like a fucking retard or that smirk when you can't get a word out.. the worst part is not even being able to tell someone your name