Tbh, I have a very similar situation to you and I’m still fighting it but I believe very shortly I’ll overcome. The truth is that, as a “stutterer” I believe you are very prone to self pity, I can’t count the number of nights I cried myself to sleep cause I thought my situation was over… I believe that stuttering is a game of concealment and you try to hide foreever but eventually you just need to let go and realise no one cares, no one literally cares..