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I'm So Messed Up... Please help.... Hey guys! First, some background. I'm a 16-year-old stutterer who lives in New York. My stutter is mainly blocks and some occasional hand movements or finger tapping. My stutter gets worse if I'm anxious or when I present or get called on to read an excerpt from a book or something. Now, let's get on with my story... ​ So, I have Spanish class with another student who also stutters. Let's just call him Bob for now. Bob's stutter is more of a repeated sound issue, for example (uh-uh-uh-uh). He sits in the front of the class while I sit somewhat in the back. Now, I don't participate much during Spanish due to my stuttering and also because I don't know much in Spanish. I have to say, Bob is a really brave student. Even with his stutter, he makes an effort to participate about 2-3 times a week. I had Spanish class with him last semester too, and I didn't realize that he had that much of a stutter until this semester. I've only talked to him once or twice while leaving Spanish, and he seems like a nice guy. So anyways... I've recently begun to "laugh" at his stuttering when he gets called on or when he raises his hand to participate. He repeats "uh-uh-uh" quite a couple of times, and I don't know why I start to laugh at that. I don't straight up start laughing like a maniac, but more so really quiet laughing. I'm pretty sure he doesn't hear me. The people around me manage to keep their faces still and not even make an attempt to laugh. My groupmates ask me why I'm laughing at him, and I honestly don't know. I don't know why I laugh at him? I've been known to have a light-going attitude towards things in general, and quite goofy all the time. I'm very friendly and nice to everyone, and I have quite a lot of friends even with my stutter or anything (this is not to brag or anything, just stating why this might be happening). I honestly think it's either because of my easy going attitude, or the fact that I stutter too, and I know what it feels like (although this one makes no sense). I honestly don't know what to do, and I feel like shit afterward. I mean, we both stutter and we should be supportive of each other, but I don't know what's wrong with stupid me. I'm just looking for a cause, and for you guys to help me get rid of this terrible problem. Thanks guys! :(