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Glad you liked it. :) On review a day later I thought I should add one thing: While my efforts to lean in to and own my dysfluency have helped a lot with how I feel about it in regards to feelings of embarrassment, shame, fear and depression, that's not to say that my dysfluency is cured or easy or something I don't struggle with every-single-day. Because I do. I still get angry at it, I still get frustrated when it impedes me from communicating when and how I want and it's not exactly fun to have this basic human function of ours be sorta broken. Just the other day I saw a guy sitting a table away from me at a restaurant who was inches from knocking over this empty glass pitcher at the edge of the table. Soon as I saw it I opened my mouth in attempt to say "Hey man! Watch out! " cuz I wasn't close enough to grab it. But I couldn't get the "Hey" out. Like total silence. Jaw agape, weird air coming out of my throat, but just no sound. Massive block! And, well, down the pitcher went, and smashed on the floor. Big glass mess. I couldn't do anything about it. I needed to say that word right then, no time for stalling. Talk about frustrating! Lol. So while I hope anyone that reads my above comment can get something helpful from it, in no way am I trying to diminish the difficulty and struggles we all go through with our dysfluency. Owning it helped how I deal with crappy feelings it can cause. But it took time, lots of discomfort, and it's still a work in progress. The struggle is still there. That being said, embracing it like we embrace all the things that make us unique (and humble) is much more effective I've found than fighting it tooth and nail. And while we can't control how others feel about it, we can surely control how we feel about it. And to the OP, I'm really sorry you had that experience of being mocked. Trust me I've been there a million billion times since I was 8 or so. It sucks, even if it's not meant to be malicious, it still feels like a punch in the throat. I feel for you and all of us that struggle with our speech. Just wanted to let you know I can relate. But I'll leave you with a great quote that really was a 'lightbulb moment' for me and so appropriate: *"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."* -Eleanor Roosevelt