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Stuttering Getting Worse Recently Dear /r/Stutter First time making a post here, because i was never uncomfortable with my stutter. I didn't stutter that hard until recently.   For a bit of background: My father has a stutter aswell, nobody in our family has one but us. I have always been confident in myself, and never felt embarrased or a lesser person due to my stutter. Which i know is not something that is common with us, stutterers.   Recently i started my very first Job as a recruiter for technical profiles (engineers), I hadn't even graduated yet and they gave me the confidence that i would in September (As of about 4 hours ago, i am graduated! Woohoo!). This company is a very sales oriented company, everything for the money. That is not something i'm that oriented about, i'm more about the quality of the match between the person and the job. Nevertheless i thought i could do my thing and be less annoying by 'selling' jobs to people. So the first day start and i meet all of the people, really nice and friendly people. Also should mention there was another recruiter who just started, which made it fun as i'm not the only new guy but also a bit of a competitiveness. As i felt like i needed to outperform him, being aware of that feeling made me get frustrated as i know we are a team and it's all about teamplay. Nevertheless the first days or going fine, meeting the people, getting to know the job. The latter was harder than expected, since i don't have any engineering degree or background. Getting to know the profiles and technical side of things was, and still is after a month, very hard. But the important thing for me is that the relationship with the team is good. Which i believe to being so, we laugh a lot and sort of joke around with eachother. Giving burns and getting on people's nerves, just some fun. Now these last weeks or so i feel like there is a lot of talking behind peoples back. Hating on them for several reasons, some are correct. But some are just random or personal things, which would hurt the person if they knew people were talking about them that way. So that makes me wonder, how do they talk about me? I talked about it with the other new recruiter on our way to a convention, and he said he felt the same... He said he started 'grinding his teeth in his sleep' (not sure what the english word for that is), due to stress. I feel like my stutter has gotten so much worse since i started there... Sometimes i can't even start a word, which i NEVER had before.   So right now i'm not sure what makes my stutter go south like that... Our recruitment manager is a really cool guy, who couldn't stress enough that we shouldn't feel any pressure as starters. So i really don't have any clue what is going wrong... Or how i could 'fix' it... Can i do some meditation, or relaxation things? Should i just go see a specialist about this? What can i do? I'm really lost and i know that my stutter will limit my possibilities of growing within the company in the future...   Please /r/Stutter , you're my only hope.   EDIT: thanks a ton for all the kind words and advice. Thinking about getting speech therapy! Hope it stabilizes or gets toned down again. :-)