This is a deep question and one I think about a lot. I got messed with early on but I learned how to adapt. I had to make it up in other ways… I worked my butt off, did what I was supposed to do, didn’t cause trouble and learned how to adapt. Counting off was the hardest. You count off like 7-8 times a day in boot camp. Imagine standing in the barracks in line, counting off and when it gets to your turn… you can’t speak. I learned I could say numbers 1-8, so I had to make sure I was in the front of the line. That’s where my anxiety stems from lol