i swear that is exactly how i feel, im 17 currently turning 18 in a couple months, and i hate being alone but im forced too due to my stutter. and I want to have more freedom while working so im currently making music/art but i always keep on thinking about my stutter and how it's a burden towards me. honestly I can't give you advice because we are dealing with this aswell and everyday we learn what makes us comfortable and ways we deal with it. but personally it's the hope that once i graduate and move out from my country, ill have more of an accepting and reliable friens group, maybe a relationship. just someone who actually views me as me rather than my stutter and who can help me deal with it.