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Vent Hey you, I apologise for any mistakes, English is my second language. to explain my situation: I was stuttering badly from second to eight grade, like really badly, I would cry in class and people would make fun of me, but something changed (I think it was my mental state and also putting yourself out there) and I didn't stutter that much anymore only on rare occations. Also a lot of my imidiate family member have a slight stutter. Now I'm a senior and it bothers me so much. Over the course of the pandemic my stuttering has gotten worse and I'm terrified that the really bad stutter will come back. I was always a leader and I still am. I love to talk, I love expressing ideas and its just hard when one of the rare things you love doing is also your worst enemy.when talking breaks you down. It's hard when everyone deems you as stupid and says things as: "did you really forget that word?? Why are you thinking about what are you gonna say that much??" Like I try to find other words and take my time. So when I take my time people think that I don't know the answer or something. And I just want to talk normally... For once. the worst thing is when you want to ask something in class, or you want to start a disussion but you know, you know its not going to be good, you know you are going to stutter, you know people are gonna look at you weird, so you just stay quiet. Stuttering really makes me feel worthless, like It wouldn't be right to express myself, like I shouldn't even speak. Even my best friend she is just like," hey its gonna be all right" without EVEN LISTENING TO Me I mean!?It hurts when people don't know what kind of a mental toll stuttering takes on you, the anxiety, stress it's all so fucking exhausting. I just want it to end and be like others I am new to this channel and reading All of your posts it really made me feel better, people actually understanding you and accepting you for who you are. It really made me feel good. If you read all of this, thank yo, you're a amazing!