I'm going through the same thing. My stutter has gotten so worse these past few years that I can't talk to anyone now. I've locked myself in. Cant even talk to family at this point and several therapists have failed me. I've long given up on dating or any kind of relationship. I don't see any hope for the future. I can relate to all of your points so much that it feels like I've written it. Sorry that this wasn't supportive or hopeful. I guess i just wanted to lyk that you're not alone in feeling this way.