Thanks Marco, I am still in the therapy, that helped me a lot and where we are told that "it is bad to stutter". And I've heard it all of my life everywhere since I was 4 yo. So it is hard to change the mindest so drastically. Everybody is so happy when I speak fluently, myself included. And everybody feel pity when I relapse. But I understand your point of view. I am working on it. Actually these "feel like a shit" moments does not occur frequently, most of the time I am actually happy that I speak a lot better than before. But I am not a robot and sometimes it is very hard.