Same here dude. Sucks every day. Wouldnt wish this hell upon anybody. But you know what, God gave you a stutter to give you a bigger heart than most. He gave you a handycap so you can empathize with people less fortunate than you. It gives you compassion for weaker people because we are weak. "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" appears in 2 Corinthians 12:9. I know this sounds cliche, but life is not an accident. Our stutter is not an accident. Have faith that your struggle in vein. Look around in the world right now Josh. It's on a verge of a massive shift. We will both be grateful we've gone through hell together. Now we can truly taste what heaven will taste like. I'll take that tradeoff any day of the week brother. Stay strong.