I'm worried I'm becoming a stutterer
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I'm worried I'm becoming a stutterer I did not used to stutter. Occasionally I would and it would catch me off guard but that happens to everyone I think During the pandemic I actually had a housemate that stuttered a lot and very obviously and somehow I DID NOT NOTICE until I made an offhand comment that a housemate interpreted as me making fun of her stutter and I got called out. After that the curtain was lifted and it became extremely noticeable. Then I started noticing every single time I did it. Which was really not a lot. Maybe a handful of times in a few months. I definitely noticed but kind of just brushed it off because "it happens to everyone every once in a while". Then I moved out of that house and went back to in person college and ever since it's been getting more frequent. It just feels like it didn't start the word right and I get stuck in a loop trying to fix it I honestly had myself convinced it was all in my head / a bad habit / a vocal tic because the vocal tics I've always had started getting a lot worse around the same time and I do the same head movement as when I tic and when I stutter. But the past 2 days I've done it A Lot and for the first time yesterday, someone commented on it and now it feels real. Then last night I did it actually in some voice messages to my friend. That's the first time I've had a recording of myself doing it and [listening back](https://soundcloud.com/julian-294564473/sets/i-stutter/s-f0grfUBxZEz?si=56665d89330d4b9d83dec91ef7313bda) it sounds very real. I did it a bunch more today I know this usually starts in childhood and I'm 23. But I also know my dad has something like a stutter. I also supposedly have cerebral palsy (diagnosed as an infant and then never followed up on, so I guess a mild case, not that I don't have symptoms) which is apparently a common comorbidity. This might just be it for me. I started doing some googling and I have a theory. I think I always did have a mild one but I just sort of talked through it (I "tripped on my words" a good bit), and once I became aware of it it started a vicious cycle where I would be more aware of it which would make me more tense which would make me do it more which would make me more aware of it And now I'm feeling worried that this is gunna keep being a problem and keep getting worse and I'm not sure what to do about it. It doesn't impede on my life at all so I don't feel like it's warranted to see a professional about it. It just feels ominous. I don't need more obstacles to overcome I already got plenty