I hear that you're really frustrated maybe even angry about your stutter. That's a really tough place to be in. I hear that you want to just be able to speak fluently all the time and that if you could none of these other things would be problematic. The first question I have for you is, how strongly do you believe you can change your stutter? Nothing is going to change if you don't believe it will. Can you tell yourself, "I accept / acknowledge that this is how I stutter now and I am learning new ways to change it"? You don't have to like it right now and you don't have to accept that it's always going to be like this. I also 100% agree with others that acceptance is a vital part of changing your stutter. The more anxious, worried, afraid, frustrated, angry you are about your stutter, the more you will stutter. There are physiological components to this. The more you accept it and yourself, and the less you care about what people think about you and/or your stutter, the less struggle and tension you will have when you speak. I think there is also value in learning strategies for changing your stutter, but if you don't address the emotional bit, the strategies will be even more difficult to implement. None of this is "getting rid of your stutter", but they're tools that can help you participate in and enjoy life more fully. Everyone is on their own journey with stuttering. Wishing you greater ease on yours. We all know how tough it can be.