I've had this situation where my stutter came back way worse than it ever was. I also felt like I wouldn't amount to anything and I created this narrative in my head that I need to shelter myself from everyone. Possibly due to heightened anxiety/stress/depression now that you're an adult. Focus on reducing your anxiety and understanding that stuttering is apart of you not to be ashamed of. CONTROL WHAT YOU CAN CONTROL. Stuttering is like golf. The harder you swing the worse the shot is. The harder you try not to stutter, you stutter more. but an easy smooth swing is ideal. When you just talk instead of trying not to stutter, you will see improvement. Meditate twice daily to have more control of your thoughts (Research on YouTube 5 min guided meditation) It works! Start today. When you read this message put on headphones and go lay down on the floor or go to the stall at work and do it. Just find a way. your negative voice in your head will tell you that nothing will help but its lying to you. Your negative voice is trying to keep you in the same comfortable routine, because It feels safe. Meditation will allow you to tell that voice NO and you can actually have some control on what is said up there Find a stuttering group in your city. Check out NSA Weight train. This quiets your brain and gives you confidence. You got this man. It's not easy but life is easier when you accept yourself for who you are. Your stutter is part of you. Running from your stutter is hard because it's on a string tied to you. It will always be right there when you turn around. So stop running. Find a way to coexist with who you are.