Lowest point of my life

Lowest point of my life I just saw a group of friends whom I haven't seen in a while in a tram. They didn't know much about my stuttering and when we started talking I was blocking and twitching all over. Barely couldn't string a sentence. I'm in my car now crying and wondering how God can create such an evil disorder. I don't know why I'm writing this and I hope I don't demotivate my fellow stuttering brothers and sisters. I usually don't like to be negative. But I wanted to share it with people who understand me. Because I feel like no one in my life understands the pain, not even my parents.